I'm hurt, there is NO doubting that.
I can't believe she just forgot all about me.
Everything we had.....she let it all slip away...for the 3rd time
Why?
Was I really not that important to her?
I DON'T GET IT!!!!!!
I must not have meant anything to her at all.
It DOES hurt.
I can't pretend that it doesn't
All I want is respect, I don't ask for much HONESTLY I never have.
Why is it so much to ask...for a little love?
She's too busy worrying about HER instead of ANYONE else.
Why won't someone tell her she's losing everyone that cares!??!
And BRETT just won't man up and tell her how much it hurts him!!!!!!
He's too much of a wimp to admit that she is using him!
UGH it makes me sick!
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On a much brighter note.......
I had a beautiful birthday and I'm glad I got to be with Nathan.
He really has kept me sane through all of this.
I'm feeling a breakdown coming on...
I need him..I need him now.
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*af*

Gosh, I'm so irritated!
I love her, I really really do. And honestly...i don't know  why I miss her God i miss her so much!
It tears me apart inside knowing she's fine without me. And my goodness i look at pictures of us and i cry, i cant stop crying.  


I want her the way she was, all i want is her back. But not who she is now..

what hurts the most, was being so close.
and having so much to say, and watching you walk away
and never knowing what could have been....and not seeing that love in you
thats what i was trying to do.......

I miss her... and i cant stop listening to that song because i really think it describes the whole thing with us.
i hate this.
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On the other hand...
Nathan is amazing :)
I love him so much, and i would NEVER be able to get through this without him.
He's my rock
I love you honey

*af*